Wednesday, March 26, 2014

light at the end of the tunnel…

I know I gave up social media for Lent, but I really didn’t want to wait until cheat day to post this…

Ok, this is not a boo hoo, feel sorry for me post…I’m actually beyond relieved with what has come to be…a few weeks ago I had mentioned that I had been struggling…well after about a month of trying to figure out why, I have my answer!!

But, I shouldn’t jump ahead…a little backstory first…I’ve been feeling like a crazy person…mood swings, NO motivation, always tired, anxious, panic attacks (so much fun!) waking up in the middle of the night, not able to lose weight even though I feel like I’m starving myself AND working out!!  I say I’ve been feeling like this for about 6 months (the hubby would say longer but I just choose to ignore that)…

I thought maybe it was my birth control (Mirena) so I had it removed, it was about time anyway so I had nothing to lose…that made me feel great, for about a week…then all the feelings returned

After a few months of no changes I went back to my OBGYN…they tested my thyroid (really hoping that was the issue) and my vitamin D level (which is quite the common deficiency these days)…well my vitamin D was low but my thyroid was just fine…damn!  so, she prescribed an anti depressant which sent me over the edge…I wanted an answer and a cure, but when the reality hit I wasn’t ready for it…I didn’t want to take a prescription forever, and possible side effects were way too scary…

So, I went with my second to last resort (the last being the booby hatch)…I contacted a doctor of naturopathic medicine that a friend was going to for dietary issues, what did I have to lose…

My first office visit was 90 minutes!!  Let me tell you, it was fabulous…you actually get time to sit and talk about all your symptoms without the doctor having one hand on the door handle…she ordered a couple tests which you can do at home (no needles, no blood!)…she wanted to test my neurotransmitters and cortisol levels

It took a couple weeks to get the results…of course the waiting came with it’s own level of stress…what if all my levels were fine?  what if I’ve just turned into an asshole?  there ain’t no cure for that!!

Last night I went to get my test results and,turns out…I am all jacked up!!  YAY!!!  Out of 12 neurotransmitters I tested low for 6…serotonin, GABA, taurine, PEA, norepinephrine, and epinephrine (lowest)…so what do these all have in common?? when they are low the symptoms are fatigue, lack of focus, difficult weight loss, low mood, severe sleep difficulties, uncontrolled appetite, headaches, difficulty thinking clearly, severe anxiousness, lack of motivation , lack of energy…

I assume you all now understand the lack of posts…no motivation/no energy=nothing getting done around the house=nothing to post about!!

oh, and, the cortisol levels??  Well, mine likes to spike at night instead of go down which causes me  not to sleep…

Let me tell you, the last 6 months has been SO much fun!!  BUT, the bright side is I have an answer…I’m not an asshole, just a little unbalanced!! 

And, I’ll start to feel like a rock star in just a few weeks, and it’ll be done naturally…I’m seriously giddy!! 

I will admit, I felt embarrassed and uncomfortable to even talk about how I was feeling, I just told one of my best girlfriends last week…honestly, I didn’t want to hear things like, “you’ve got a high schooler now”, “you’re tire because you still have young kids”…I knew those were not the reasons…I just didn’t feel right, normal, and when I talked about it to my husband  I got upset and cried…then I got upset and yelled…quite the roller coaster

As with most everything in life, even this has a downside…cost!  Unfortunately, most insurance companies do not cover naturopathic doctors so everything was out of pocket, and it’s not cheap!  But, to me it was worth every penny…to be able to sit and talk to a doctor,  to get to the root of the problem and treat it naturally is definitely the best option for me…

I guess with 40 around the corner I’m getting to be more of a hippy as far as medicine and diet, I’m not trying to live longer, just better…if you have a chronic, long term medical condition, I recommend looking into a naturopathic/homeopathic option…make sure to save up!

So, now that my dirty little secret is out, I’m hoping things will start picking up around here…so stick with me for a little while longer!!

Sunday, March 16, 2014

week in review…

I made it through an entire week without social media…and it’s my official cheat day…it’s so weird to use Google to find things instead of jumping on Pinterest!!

So here’s my week in pictures…

We got some last minute tickets to the Big 12 tournament,  two rows from the court!!

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I moved a bench from the back yard to the front porch which now requires some pillows…I’ve ordered these samples from Spoonflower…

bouquet navy large on Spoonflower by Katrina

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floral bouquet on black stripe Spoonflower by Katrina

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charcoal dots on Spoonflower by Domesticate

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And I’m rethinking the function of our dining room…I’d like it to serve more of a purpose on a daily basis, kind of a homework/workspace…

I’d love a new sideboard…

Ikea floating sideboard

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and some new chairs…I found these via The Hunted Interior

Ghost Side Chair in Transparent Crystal [FH-111-APC-CLR-GG]

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and the weekend ended with too much wine on Sat. night which equals a lazy day on Sunday…

I did top off the weekend with a little project…

succulents in concrete planter

I pity the poor sap  (aka my oldest son) who has to carry this outside for summer!!

Until next week!!

Sunday, March 9, 2014

40 Days…

The Lenten season is upon us…of course, the usual question is “what are you giving up for Lent”…

I have decided to give up sweets/desserts and, wait for it…social media (YIKES!!)

I will be checking in on Sundays…the official cheat day, Catholics love their loopholes!!

It’s gonna be hard, maybe I’ll get a whole lot done, I will admit, some days I can waste a lot of time checking in on Instagram, Facebook & Pinterest…and sadly my beloved blogs (tear)…

What sacrifices are you giving?  Also, who’s doing something for others during Lent??  I’d love to hear ideas…

Wednesday, March 5, 2014

I am here, I am here, I am here…

I feel like the Who’s in Horton Hears a Who…I’m hoping everyone out there has not abandoned this here ship…

Truth be told, I’ve been struggling a little…and really that’s for another day, another post…

So, don’t break up with me just yet…this old girl is going to get back on course…

For now, here’s a little eye candy that is giving me mucho inspiration for my living room…

Lauren Liess

 

Pure Style Home: Lauren Liess

 

Images via Lauren Liess

Thursday, January 9, 2014

feeling the blue…

 

My client/friend and I had a hard time getting the “ahhhhh” effect we wanted for her master bedroom…

Until, looking through a KC Spaces magazine when I finally found the inspiration picture I’d been looking for…

 David Jimenez

David Jimenez

We had the navy walls, but that’s about as far as we’d gotten…

Still a ways to go, but it’s a good start…

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Tuesday, January 7, 2014

the new year…

 

2014 chalkboard

Goals, resolutions…we all have them.  I myself have made the usual, run of the mill goals…save more, spend less…exercise regularly…be more organized…yada, yada, blah, blah, blah…

The one I’m really going to focus on though is to stop being a chicken shit…yes, that’s right…a scaredy cat, chicken shit…I tend to shy away from things because of fear, and that is a quality I dislike about myself…

Also, I’m going to work on my self confidence…I really want to be an interior decorator and I’m about done with my schooling…which is another thing I don’t really talk about for fear of ridicule…you see, I’m doing an online interior design course and I worry people will think it’s cheesy…they don’t, it’s my own hang up and that’s the crap I need to get past…

Maybe it’s the excitement of the new year or the fact that I will be turning 40 in a few months (enter full blown anxiety attack)…or maybe both, but this is the year I’m kicking it in the ass!!

Now who’s with me?!?

Friday, January 3, 2014

knockout knock off…

I went to Marshall’s one day for a small wicker basket…
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Needless to say I found some other things I couldn’t live without…
Like this tray…
Arteriors Home cinchwaist tray knock off
Marshall’s $29.99
very similar to one I lust after but cannot in my lifetime afford…
Cinchwaist Tray
she’s not much to look at, but…a little Krylon gold pen and she’s a beaut!!
Arteriors Home cinchwaist tray knock off